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squeekietronika
squeekietronika

I've come to the conclusion that I am becoming a bit of a hermit. I'm not necessarily sure how I feel about it either. School and work seem to consume my time, so when it comes down to hanging out with people, I usually choose to spend my time at home rather than spend my time with them. I honestly don't think I've actually gone out with friends since my birthday. Typically I come up with some excuse that may or may not be entirely true. For instance "I need to finish my homework." Truth is, I probably do have homework, but do I need to finish it on THIS specific night? Probably not. I also seem to buy projects to make me feel like I have a reason to stay home. Maybe i'm using these projects to fill some unknown void.

Upon thinking about this habit of mine, I also realized how terribly uncomfortable it makes me feel to go to other peoples homes when I don't have prior knowledge that they are home. It's always been this way. For as long as I can remember, I have needed to call or text someone before I come over to their place, just to make sure that they were home. Even if I am invited over earlier in the day... when it comes time for me to head over to a friends place, I need to reassure myself that they will be there. I wish I could break myself of this. I yearn to be spontaneous and surprise people by showing up to visit them!

F uuuuuuuu mind! Why must you plague me like this?

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amaliesmiles From: amaliesmiles Date: March 15th, 2012 12:15 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm a little late on reading LJ, BUT! I miss you. I miss having someone to hang out with when I really need to laugh.
If Rozi is busy then I have NO ONE here and it makes me with you were at least a 30 min bus ride away. Or even a 1 hour bus ride. I NEED YOU! AAHHH.

<3
Anyways, I hope that you figured out your final and have had time to breathe and enjoy form time with people. I will be seeing you in a week and I am SO excited.

I love you. <3 <3
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